2DPO

This cycle I decided to try using soy isoflavones (but I'll just call it soy iso). I decided to take it because I wanted to have a stronger Ovulation then I had been having and to make sure that I actually did O because of our four completed cycles I had two annovulitory cycles. So for our fifth cycle (and our seventh month of TTC) I really just wanted that assurance that we would have a chance this cycle. I actually kind of feel like the cycles that I didn't O were wasted cycles. Like it was just a wast of time and effort on my and my Husband's part. I don't like that I feel that way because it is actually helping us get help conceiving but with how long and irregular my cycles are it really matters to me because before we know it, it will be next year.

I took the soy iso CD 5-9, with 160mg all five days. You can take it CD 1-5, 2-6, 3-7, 4-8, or 5-9 You aren't supposed to start it later then CD five because taking the soy too late in your cycle can do more harm then good. I chose my day's mostly because I just wanted a stronger egg. I didn't want to have more then one egg. Well I wouldn't mind twins but my husband being the voice of reason that he often is when it comes to TTC, keeps reminding me that there is no way we could afford to have twins. Since at the current moment neither of us have jobs, we are looking and are hoping that by the time I manage to get pregnant, and the baby would actually get here that we'll have a job.

This entire cycle I was feeling out, I mean I just felt like I wasn't going to O at all. I had no idea why, My cycles being as long as they are so I certainly wasn't expecting to O anytime soon. So I was confused by my onw feelings. So that you guys get some perspective on what I mean I was feeling this way around CD 10 tell like CD 20ish, in the past I've O'd on CD 23 and CD 33, and the cycle that I had paragaurd removed (the birth control I was on) I O'd around CD 43 based off of an ultrasound. So yeah I was not expecting to O soon even if I did O. I think the real reason I was feeling that way was because I was hoping that the soy would bring up my O date, even though I had read it normally didn't for the days I took it. 

Well here I sit and I'm 2DPO. I always temp, and this cycle I was using OPK which I've used once before but they decided not to give me a positive even though my temp showed that I O'd. I was apprehensive about using them again because I was worried that I would either never get a positive but get a temp spike or that they would give me a positive but that my temp wouldn't spike. But on CD25 (Monday) I had an almost positive OPK, as well as EWCM. I've had an almost positive OPK before, but I've never really had EWCM like I did this cycle. On CD26 I had a Positive OPK and more EWCM I was SO happy, all of the sudden I had hope for this cycle. I took another OPK CD27 and it was still Positive which really surprised me; I also still had EWCM, and my CP was finally high, soft, and open. On CD28 my opk was negative, my EWCM was gone, and my cervix while still high it was hard and not truly open any more.  I was only actually still using the OPKs to see when they stopped being Positive. My temp went up from the day before but it was by no means a spike. Today my temp went from barely over 97 degrees to almost 98 degrees. 

Count down to pregnancy is what had set my O date to Wednesday; the app on my phone (OvuView) also has my O date as being Wednesday, FF on the other hand has yet to give me cross hairs; hoping it will tomorrow and that my temp will still be nice and high. I'm really hoping that this is our month, though at the same time it won't bother me as much as normal if AF does show up in about eighteen days. The reason for that is that we are starting to go to the fertility specialist, and I trust that he can get me pregnant, hopefully with a sticky baby.

Our first appointment with the fertility Specialist is tomorrow morning; so now I'm going to run off and take a relaxing bath and then head to bed.

Baby Dust to all,

~Cathrin

Background

I'm not new to blogging, I've blogged off and on for about two years now. Now I've decided to start a blog specifically for TTC (trying to conceive). It will take me a little while to get this up and running how I want so bare with me.

Here is a run down of my story.

I met my husband when I was thirteen, I pretty much knew then that he was the one. When I was fifteen I got pregnant for the first time, I had a very early miscarriage on October 31st 2008. I decided to name the baby Feodora Laurent. A little over a year later I got pregnant again, our daughter, Serenity Grace, was stillborn on June 10th 2010. I was sixteen when I got pregnant and was seventeen when she was born. I got pregnant again while seventeen and had another early miscarriage on January 6th 2011, we named the baby Sterling Snow. My husband also has another angel named Devon James, he was lost to a missed miscarriage, they found out October 27th 2004.

I graduated high school June 11th 2011, the day after Serenity's first birthday. I got a tattoo in memory of my angels (this includes my stepson Devon) on June 17th 2011. On July 15th 2011 I married my husband. We didn't start trying right away, I wasn't ready. After I lost Sterling I didn't want to have another baby, I was just so scared to lose another baby. In February we decided to try to have a baby. I was ready to risk loss again in the hopes that we would have our rainbow.

After we started trying, and I started talking to other women who were TTC I realized that I don't have normal cycles. I've never had the regular twenty-eight day cycle, mine have always been somewhere between thirty and sixty days. So I talked to my OBGYN about it and he did blood tests to see if I was ovulating or not, and found that I didn't O that cycle. Right after that cycle ended we moved out of state to be closer to my husband's family. I found a new OBGYN and she told me I have a retroverted uterus, which I had never been told before. The thing I didn't like about her was that she didn't continue checking my Progesterone levels for Ovulation like my previous doctor, but she said that if I didn't get pregnant in a few more months then she would send me to a specialist.

After my last cycle which was one where I did O I realized that when I do O I have a LP of about twenty days so I went in to see her about it. She said that it could be delaying us getting pregnant but didn't really get into detail. My hubby and I told her that my doctor back home had mentioned starting me on clomid so she agreed to give a referral to see the specialist. I scheduled the appointment for this upcoming Saturday at 10:15.

I think, this for the most part, brings you up to date.
~Cathrin