School Bus

RR is talking about going to school and getting on a school bus. I'm not prepared for that. And I had to break it to her that I had no intention of sending her to school on a school bus ever. She started crying and telling me how she wants to go to school on the school bus.

But most of RR's friends go to preschool. Some are even in kindergarten this year. And she is so smart. I guess what she wants to do is sit down and do some "formal" schooling everyday or at least most days. Which leaves me wondering how to get started. I wasn't planning to start school tell she was four or five. I had thought about doing preschool when she was 4 to give homeschooling a trial run but I really just want her to enjoy being three right now.

RR can count to about 15 consistently and 20 sometimes. I think she can pick out some words here and there, though phonetics and actually recognizing letters is lacking a little bit.

WL can count to 3 and tries to sing the alphabet with the TV and such. She's a pretty smart cookie for being 21 months.

Since we have spent no time actually trying to teach them anything I think we are doing pretty good. And I have no problem with either of them not learning to read yet, I'll worry about that when we hit 5.

~Cathrin

Saturday

Today is two days before my vender booth. I feel unprepared because I haven't made much since it was rescheduled from the 8th do to the hurricane.

I'm hoping to make one more stuffy, maybe a few scarves since they are just so quick to make. I had hoped to have more ready. But with losing Skylar, my on going depression, and family obligations; less got done than I had hoped. My hope is too sell a lot so that we can save some money, and maybe get my etsy shop off the ground. After Saturday I have to get cracking on a few orders that I have from my friends that need to get finished and handed out. I also need to nake christmas presents according to my husband so there is that to look forward too.

I did finish my Skylar dragon. I sleep with him at night and it helps. It has made my days easier and my heart ache less. But for now I better get back to work.

~Cathrin

Skylar

Skylar Mabon. That is what we have decided to name the baby. Mabon because that is the day we found out he was gone. That I was indeed miscarrying. And Skylar because hubby likes that name and it's unisex. I am making a Skylar dragon; in between working on orders. I think I should maybe just work on him, for my own sake. Because I need something to hold, something to keep the baby close to me.

Today I am busy being mommy to RR and WL. And working on a couple pokemon that my friends have ordered. I'm thinking about starting a crochet blog. I would probably update that blog more often than this one, not because I like this blog but writing about crochet is easier than writing about life. It's hard to figure out how much information is to much and how much is too little sometimes.

-Cathrin

Six months

Last time I got on here was six months ago. That seems crazy to me. It doesn't feel like it was that long ago. But a lot has happened since then.

We ended up backing out of the house that was mentioned in my last post. The inspection just showed the house needed too much work for us to do. We did end up under contract for a different house. It was 1800 square feet, almost half an aicher of land the end of a dead end street. We ended up not getting that house either, not because we didn't want it but because the bank screwed up and the seller refused to extend the closing for them to fix the loan.

We were rear ended by a dump truck back in March. We were all fine no one got hurt. Our car did spend three months in the shop which was kind of ridiculous. We were in a minivan for a while then insurance refused to pay for the rental and we got a loaner from the shop. A tiny civic, that really does not work well with two rear facing car seats.

We also got a dog back in April. Her name is Princess. She is a mix breed. Her mommy was a pointer of some kind and her dad was supposed to be a lab. But her coloring is more german shepherd so we think she might have a different daddy than her siblings. My little brother and his Fiancee got one of her sisters and they look nothing alike.

So now we're just in the place we've been renting for the past couple years. We're going to start looking again next year. And it's suddenly September. The end of September.

This past month I've been crocheting as much as possible. Trying to get ready for a vendor booth that I have on October 8th. I have really fallen behind on that I wanted to have done for it this past week. I don't think I've finished one thing. For a week or two I was getting a something done every day. But this past week has been slow.

Last week I found out I was pregnant. Exactly a week ago I started spotting and I called my doctor. By the time I went to the appointment I was full on bleeding. They did blood work and told me Thursday that I lost the baby. I already knew that I had lost the baby in my heart, but I was hoping I was wrong. Today I went back to make sure everything is back at 0. I'm pretty sad, we have been trying since December, and weren't preventing before then. This cycle and probably next cycle we wont be trying. My brother is getting married next June and I want to be able to be there since I am a bridesmaid. I can't have a due date in June because my babies always come a little early. It will be hard to stop trying for any length of time but maybe it will be good to take a break from it.

I don't know that there is anything else to say.

-Cathrin

It's March. I feel like there is nothing to report but I realize that there really is. I just cleaned the bathtub for the first time is way too long. We're currently starting to pack all of our stuff. We will be moving the end of April, to a house we own. My hubby is ecstatic, he's only ever lived in a rented house before; well except when we lived with my parents. But I don't think that is much difference. We're buying a foreclosure. It's a nice place with a nice amount of land, and an open concept living space. It is a split floor plan but it's a ranch so they are still close by. WL is 13 months. RR is almost 3. WL will be the more talkative of the two I think. She jibber jabbers all day long. RR is potty trained except for the occasional night accident. We plan to have the two of them in a room and then use the other room as a nursery for the next baby. I've never been able to set up a nursery before so I'm very excited about it.

Currently we're trying to conceive. We have only been since my cycle returned back in December. This cycle has been crazy. Fertility Friend has changed my ovulation date from CD14 to CD16, CD18, and finally CD20. I don't think I ovulated any of those days. I'm currently 18DPO according to Fertility Friend, and am due for my period at any moment. Glow which has the same information as Fertility Friend thought CD28 at first and has since changed it to CD 34. Glow has me at a whopping 4DPO. I'm not sure I Ovulated at all. But regardless of what either says I'm currently in who the hell knows part of my cycle and just waiting a couple weeks for either my period or a positive. I might honestly be better if I don't get pregnant this cycle anyway, since we are moving.

As I wrote this I was sitting in the bath and WL came in several times to dance for me. And RR came in the play in my water. Both walked on the library book I'm reading (a game of thrones). Hubby came and grabbed them. And now it's bedtime. I am exhausted. Good night.

~Cathrin