In early November I came to the realization that I love me life. It may sound like a stupid thing to realize but to me it was honestly a surprise.
You see my marriage has been in a bad state for a little while. If I were to use a house as a way to describe it I would have to say that the foundation was cracked. Which is something I haven't admitted to most of my friends. Foundations are hard to repair, they take a lot of time and energy. And while we've started to repair it, it's going to take more time, maybe a lot more time.
I came to this realization while I was driving to the store after spending the early afternoon at the park with my baby girl. My husband was at work, I was out having fun with my daughter. And even though my marriage was in shambles around me, even though we're living with my parents; And I love my life. Are there things that I would change about it if I could? Absolutly. But I love it just they way it is too. And that is something I needed.
I also realized that I truly love my husband, and that even though he's pretty crappy at showing it sometimes; he loves me too. And I love being married to him, I couldn't imagine my life with out him. He works and lets me stay home with our daughter, and it doesn't piss him off that I'm not working. And I value that, I value that more than he realizes. I value that he wants me to stay home with RR and that he is behind me with the idea of homeschooling in a few years. I value everything he does for me, and I realize that I need to try harder to show him that.
I love my life, I love being a wife, more specifically I love being a wife to my husband. I love being a mom, a full time mom to my little girl. And I wouldn't change any of it for the world.
~Cathrin
Monday, December 23, 2013
Yule
Yesterday, December 21st, was Yule. Which is the Wiccan version of Christmas. For those of you who don't know, (which may be everyone who reads this) Yule celebrates the birth, well rebirth of God unto the Goddess after his death at Samhain (October 31st). It is very similar to Christmas, the "christmas" tree originates from pagan traditions, We also do Santa and open presents.
The day before Yule, Yule Eve, I guess is the "proper" name for it but it sounds odd to me. Though that's probably because I'm not used to it yet. Anyway, after the hubby got home from work we started our "celebrations" I made Salt dough which we proceeded to make foot print and hand print ornaments as well as other ornaments. While those were cooking we watched Christmas movies (because there are no Yule ones) and got ready to head to the park near us that has a train to ride and they had the track all decorated with lights. They even had Santa, singing dancing electronic bears, and a huge track of model trains. RR loved every second of the train ride and we had a hard time keeping RR from pulling the model trains right off the track.
Yule morning after a night of RR sleeping in our bed because teething is bothering her so that she wont sleep in her crib. We brought her into the living room and after I had my hot chocolate we got our stockings and presents. RR got a baby doll that giggles from Santa, and she got the little people zootalkers train along with three more animals. Hubby got new sunglasses from Santa and a new electric shaver from me. I got a new watch and bracelet combo from Santa and my hubby got me a new wedding ring. We have to get it sized but it is beautiful.
I embroidered RR's stocking myself after it arrived, and I was trying to Crochet her a dragon by Yule morning for her stocking. I managed to quite a bit of it done, but it is still missing a leg, two arms, and the ridge down the back. but I got the body, nose, nostrils and tails done. It took a really long time especially since it was the second thing I've ever crochet. I am thinking that I might keep making them and maybe sell them. I think hand made things like that sell for quite a bit and I could always use extra cash.
After we opened presents, we headed off to a friend's baby girl's first birthday party. RR had a great time and was talking and singing the drive home. I always love it when she does that. Lets me know just how happy she is, and makes me feel like I'm doing a good job as a mom. And that is a feeling that I sometimes lack.
All in all we had a wonderful Yule and I can't wait to do it again next year, when RR will remember it.
~Cathrin.
The day before Yule, Yule Eve, I guess is the "proper" name for it but it sounds odd to me. Though that's probably because I'm not used to it yet. Anyway, after the hubby got home from work we started our "celebrations" I made Salt dough which we proceeded to make foot print and hand print ornaments as well as other ornaments. While those were cooking we watched Christmas movies (because there are no Yule ones) and got ready to head to the park near us that has a train to ride and they had the track all decorated with lights. They even had Santa, singing dancing electronic bears, and a huge track of model trains. RR loved every second of the train ride and we had a hard time keeping RR from pulling the model trains right off the track.
Yule morning after a night of RR sleeping in our bed because teething is bothering her so that she wont sleep in her crib. We brought her into the living room and after I had my hot chocolate we got our stockings and presents. RR got a baby doll that giggles from Santa, and she got the little people zootalkers train along with three more animals. Hubby got new sunglasses from Santa and a new electric shaver from me. I got a new watch and bracelet combo from Santa and my hubby got me a new wedding ring. We have to get it sized but it is beautiful.
I embroidered RR's stocking myself after it arrived, and I was trying to Crochet her a dragon by Yule morning for her stocking. I managed to quite a bit of it done, but it is still missing a leg, two arms, and the ridge down the back. but I got the body, nose, nostrils and tails done. It took a really long time especially since it was the second thing I've ever crochet. I am thinking that I might keep making them and maybe sell them. I think hand made things like that sell for quite a bit and I could always use extra cash.
After we opened presents, we headed off to a friend's baby girl's first birthday party. RR had a great time and was talking and singing the drive home. I always love it when she does that. Lets me know just how happy she is, and makes me feel like I'm doing a good job as a mom. And that is a feeling that I sometimes lack.
All in all we had a wonderful Yule and I can't wait to do it again next year, when RR will remember it.
~Cathrin.
Monday, December 16, 2013
It's been a long time since I've written anything here; Too long actually. I've been wanting to post for a while but it's hard to fine the time.
RR is six months old. She is honestly amazing. She is doing so much more than I ever expected her to at this age. So I'll try to give a run down of all that's happened since she was born.
We moved back home, when RR was two weeks old.
Hubby got a new job here in August and should be getting a raise this month. He also recently switched from second shift to first which has made all of us happier.
RR is crawling, and pulling up on everything. She will even stand for a few seconds on her own.
She is always wanting us to help her walk around.
She is also walking around her activity table on her own.
RR has started food now, We're still in the beginning stages but she is really enjoying it and so is her dad. It's the highlight of his day so I let him start earlier than I wanted.
I am part of a mommy group, that gets together at least once a week. It has made me pretty happy, and it's really nice to get out of the house.
I'm going to try and write a post at least once a week, but I'm notoriously bad about getting into habits like that. So we'll see how well this works.
~Cathrin
RR is six months old. She is honestly amazing. She is doing so much more than I ever expected her to at this age. So I'll try to give a run down of all that's happened since she was born.
We moved back home, when RR was two weeks old.
Hubby got a new job here in August and should be getting a raise this month. He also recently switched from second shift to first which has made all of us happier.
RR is crawling, and pulling up on everything. She will even stand for a few seconds on her own.
She is always wanting us to help her walk around.
She is also walking around her activity table on her own.
RR has started food now, We're still in the beginning stages but she is really enjoying it and so is her dad. It's the highlight of his day so I let him start earlier than I wanted.
I am part of a mommy group, that gets together at least once a week. It has made me pretty happy, and it's really nice to get out of the house.
I'm going to try and write a post at least once a week, but I'm notoriously bad about getting into habits like that. So we'll see how well this works.
~Cathrin
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