16 DPO

I am 16 DPO today, and all I can really do is wonder where all that time went because it seems like the time between 3 DPO and today has just gotten up and ran away. I think the main reason that it's seemed to fly by is because I just haven't been obsessing about symptoms or when I should test. I like the laid back feeling honestly, I don't like worrying or stressing and since I was doing almost nothing but stressing from the time I scheduled the appointment with the RE tell the appointment was over. the lack of stress the past two weeks has been a nice change for me.

I have yet to take a pregnancy test, I joined a group on baby center in the may birth club that said I wouldn't test before four days before AF. So I could have tested today as it's now four days before but I didn't, I just didn't feel like it. I may or may not test tomorrow, honestly I'm leaning toward not. I had originally planned on not testing tell Sunday which is two days before but I think I might actually just wait tell I'm late. I just don't feel pregnant. I don't not feel pregnant either though so I'm mentally preparing myself for both scenarios.

I'm actually thinking I'll be perfectly okay with it if I'm not pregnant this cycle. I want to start all the fertility testing, I want to know if there is a problem, and if it can be fixed. Of course I would rather be pregnant this cycle and not need to spend the money on the testing and treatments. But, I also don't want to be pregnant this cycle and have a miscarriage that could have been prevented with a few tests and some kind of treatment. So I think I'll be happy whichever way this cycle turns out, because if I'm not pregnant we'll be working toward that goal, and if I am we'll be on our way to having a rainbow. (I also think it would be kind of funny if the cycle that I started this blog I got pregnant. It would be kind of ironic.)

Now I'm going to play a video game while hubby refuses to wake up.
~Cathrin.